While 2020 was devastating on so many levels it gave me the biggest blessing of my life...becoming a mother to Hugo. Navigating motherhood at the same time as a pandemic also put so much into perspective for me. I have learned the importance of stillness and being fully present, the wisdom in impermanence and the freedom that comes from letting go of expectation.
In step with the rest of the year, the 2020 holidays are going to be unlike any other — and while plans with family and friends have been cancelled as COVID restrictions are extended in BC, that doesn’t mean the end of the year can't be bright.
You’d think someone who is used to waking up at 3am for work, would be able to handle night wakings with their baby better than most. While that may have been true for a couple weeks after 5 months without a night of uninterrupted sleep I found myself in the depths of sleep deprivation. It’s a scary place — the brain fog, the irritability, the exhaustion. It all piles up and for myself I know that I didn’t have the energy to be the best mom I could be for Hugo and this broke my heart. My husband and I needed to make a change and while I’d heard wonders about sleep training I was really apprehensive. Sure it works for other babies, but mine?